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I was sitting there like what, what happened in my life, you know, three of my couple months ago, I'm flying in helicopters and it was gone. Like everything was gone. And the pressure of that and the failure in my head and my heart, I just, I couldn't breathe. And then one day I just decided to walk right back into a liquor store. I walked right out of the thing and went to the liquor store, got a bottle and walked back to the rehab and then I was thinking, they said, you know, you're drunk, you got to get out or and I walked out and I spent, I don't know, if you don't know where, where like Valley Ford, Jerry, I spent like five or six, maybe lay me a little bit longer, like just walk on the streets and just drinking. I had no idea, oh, and that's, that's really where it took me until I went. And there was a place called the Valley Forge Casino and I would go in there and sneak in there at night and try to sleep downstairs, you know, and eventually I got caught and they kicked me out. This is late October, November timeframe. It's fucking freezing out of 21 or 22, 22, 22. Okay, it's freezing cold. I mean, you know, so I'm like, and so I just, I got to the point where I went to an Aced Harbour store. I was totally shit-faced and I walked in there and grabbed the rope. And went out to the woods and put the rope up and said this was going to be it. And I would say I didn't do it. But I was very, very close to taking my life, which I read about. And, you know, I kind of, I got after I couldn't do what I was doing. I don't need to get so graphic about it. I just decided that I was, the real, it wasn't like I was, I was all my knees crying and begging for some type of help, right? But I was so cold I was the only thing that I could do was go, think it was going to my mom's house, so I Ubered to my mom's house. Now I haven't shower for like, I don't know how many days. And I haven't eaten, I probably lost 25 pounds long, you know, beard, you know, knocked on the door and my mom's like, you know, what the fuck, you know? And then my sisters came over, you know, I couldn't stay at my mom's house. I mean, that was just a mess and they shower. I took a shower and said, we got one more rehab for you to go to. And that's when I went to Seabrook, which is no longer, which is in Southern, Southern New Jersey. And that's where things started to change from me. I know Seabrook, you know, Seabrook. I went to Seabrook, okay, I wouldn't care. And I would say Seabrook, Seabrook was like, everyone was like, listen, you've been all these rehabs, we're done paying for you, like, you're, you're done. Yeah, insurance will cover this one. Yeah, if you want to go, go. Yeah, yeah, that's where I got to. Okay, yeah, yeah, and that's when it's a great place. Yeah, it was, it's no longer in place. They, they got, unfortunately, they closed it down. Do you know why? You financing, they had problems with the financing. There was a lot of, I think she shit going on there. So, but that was, that was the beginning. That was where I surrendered.