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You don't actually need to figure it out yourself. One of the hardest lessons I've ever learned in life, especially with money, making money, is I get hyperfixated on how little I had of something and how much more I needed of it, and I've tried really, really, really, really hard to go take care of myself, to go fix it myself, to go solve the problem myself. Well, earlier this year, I was like, you know what, Lord? It seems like the harder I try to accomplish this, the less progress I make. And this one area of my life, specifically, is the one area that I feel the most fear in. I'm afraid to trust you with the congruency or consistency of income and its reliability, right? And so I was like, but I feel suffocated trying to figure it out myself. So I'm going to surrender this over. I don't want to be afraid of this anymore. I'm just going to trust it with you. And like, nothing really changed. Until one day, one of my friends said, how well do you take care of yourself? I'm like, I don't know. I shut down. Like I, I don't go by groceries. I don't go to the gym. I don't go, you know, out with my friends. I don't take care of myself. All I do is work. Like when I'm stressed or overwhelmed or concerned about money or problems, I shut down until it's fixed. And she goes, have you ever considered that maybe the Lord wants to take care of you first before he takes care of the problems around you? I was like, wouldn't taking care of the problems around me be taking care of me? And she goes, no. Taking care of you first means like letting you rest, giving you peace and comfort, and joy, and hope, giving you strength, and encouragement. And everything is taking care of your heart before your circumstances. And I was like, okay. So you're telling me that I need to do the things that I need to take care of me first. She was like, yeah, I was like, okay. Someone to the Lord, I was like, all right, Lord, what are the things you want to do to take care of myself? Almost immediately, I could think of things that I needed to buy for myself. I needed more of a protein drink. I needed more of a pre workout. I needed some new liquid chalk. I needed more of this or that or the other. And I was like, I have X number of dollars in my bank account. If I buy that, it's going to leave me with this. And I'm doing all the mental math. And the Lord's like, no, it's not your job. If you guys mind, you take, you trust me to take care of you or you don't. So I bought it. I bought it. I was like, okay. And then the same day, I made 36 times what I bought. How much it cost? And I was like, I'm never to that poor. So I, and like, it's not about the money. It's about proof that God wants to take care of you. So every time I found myself wanting to rehermit myself, not spending money, not take care of the things I need to take care of, because there's afraid about finances. I'd pause and go, do I need this? Yes. Okay, Lord, if I need this, then it's your responsibility to make sure I have it. I have the money here for it. I know you want me to use this money to purchase it because I need it. So I'm going to purchase it. And then every time I did, he replaced the money in the same day. Sometimes more than I spent. Find the area of your life that you are refusing to let the Lord take care of you in, because you think you need to be in charge of it. And start prioritizing. Taking care of yourself in that area. Trusting him that you won't actually lose anything as a result of it, because that's what you're afraid of. You're afraid of being hurt. It's going to lose something. Right? It's a limited resource mindset. Right? Trust that you serve a God of unlimited resource. That he gave you this to take care of that. And the other thing that you're worried about being taken care of, he already has resources to take care of that too. But take care of you first. I hope that helps.