‘are you brilliant or burning out?’ ‘yes.’ #neurodivergent #burnout #MentalHealth #capitalism #techtok #work #GameTok

And done! Okay cool, I have finished all of my tasks that my supervisor assumed a normal human be able to get through for the day. I guess I will go ask for some more. *shortly* That all did right there. What? Why? Why do you think you usually get through so many more tasks in a week than everybody else? Because nobody else works as hard as me and everyone else is slacker. *sad music* I'm just gonna say this on myself, right? It's my productivity and I'm used to putting out these things before my own. So I see anybody with a work like balances, somebody who's knocking off with no other power just making the healthy choices that I wish I could thank for myself. Almost gonna happen if you ask for more tasks. I'm gonna establish expectations that I'm always gonna be as productive as I am in my manning states, but when I get into my depressed state I'm never gonna be able to take a break and I'm always gonna be on the edge of burnout and I'm not gonna know what to do. And? And because I'm lucky afraid of my own mind when it's idle, so I try to exhaust myself so I won't have enough energy to hurt myself. Do you have anything else you can use this time for? Any way to spend this energy maybe more productively? Yeah, I have all these technical and creative pursuits that I've been putting on the back burner because I don't respect my own interesting cares enough to give my time to them in the same way that I do everybody else's. Do you think working on those might not only improve your skills, but also your ability to respect yourself and your creativity? Perhaps. So are we gonna ask for more tasks? Nope. What are we gonna do instead? Take a lunch break for the first time in six months and we're gonna have a work day for the first time in a year and a half and make some art when I get home. That's my day B. Good time.