Life has been so heavy on me lately that I don’t even recognize myself anymore. Every day feels like a battle I didn’t prepare for. I wake up tired, not just in my body, but deep in my soul. The things that used to make me smile don’t reach me anymore. It feels like I’m walking through life with a heart that is constantly breaking in silence. I have tried to be strong. I have tried to pretend that I’m okay. I have tried to fight through the pain quietly so nobody sees how much I’m struggling inside. But the truth is, I am tired. Tired of carrying burdens I don’t understand. Tired of feeling like life keeps testing me without giving me a moment to breathe. Sometimes I sit and ask myself why everything feels so hard. Why peace feels so far away from me. Why it feels like I’m losing myself little by little every day. There are moments I feel so empty that I don’t even know how to explain it to anyone. I feel like I’m fading. Like I’m present in this world, but my spirit is already somewhere else. And in those quiet moments, I find myself thinking about going back to my maker, because at least there, I believe there will be rest. At least there, the pain will stop. I don’t say this for pity. I say this because this is truly how my heart feels right now. I am overwhelmed. I am exhausted. And I just want the weight on my chest to disappear. 😔ðŸ˜
