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It's been years since I was at war with myself, but I know that feeling so fucking viscerally, and I have a lot of love and compassion, and also a really powerful practice for those of you who are experiencing that. And what I mean by being at war with yourself is essentially having could be a very blatant, uncomfortable, vicious war within yourself, where one part of you is actively unkind and mean to another part of you, and creates a lot of internal friction and sadness. It could also be that you just have two parts of you that have very opposing agendas, and it's sort of like you're paddling forward with one paddle, but you're paddling backward with the other paddle, and you just feel like you're kind of stagnating and spinning and spiraling in your life, but without really having forward momentum in alignment with what you really value. So one of the most powerful practices that I created when I was really integrating these two parts of myself and closing the war within myself was every night. Basically, it started because I would write these to-do lists, because I had so many things that I wanted to do. I'd make these massive to-do lists, I'd even plot them out in my calendar, I would try to give myself this structure about how to get all these things done, and then the next day I'd wake up and my little inner rebel was like, "Fuck this list, I don't want to be told what to do, what is all this?" And I just wouldn't do it, and I would just have this really strong dissonance between these two parts of myself, and what I started doing was every night before bed, I would write a love note, a love letter to myself, literally like I was speaking to a beloved. And I would say, "Dearself, today was so beautiful. I really appreciated that you made that breakfast, congee, and that you took the time to even make it beautiful. Let's you know, do more beautiful things tomorrow. It would mean so much to me if you could go and do this little errand, and you could do this. That would be so amazing, and I would appreciate it so much. I love you. I hope you have a beautiful day today." Wow, Sophie, something like that, when I'm like really affirming and celebrating and complimenting myself for all the wonderful things they did today, and then making a clear ask, a loving kind ask for what I needed for the next day. And I would fold this note, and I would put a little heart, I'd write my name on cue, and I would fold it and put it on top of my phone. So in the morning, when I wake up, before I'm even reaching for my phone, I see this love letter, and I would open it, and I would read it, and that would be the first thing that I would start my day with. And it's so powerful at all of the levels of our neurobiology and our physiology to reprogram ourselves with our own love and our own support and nourishment. But I found that very quickly, I was able to bridge these two parts of myself and get them working in unison. And years later, when I got into my really healthy, happy relationship, I noticed that I really know how to speak to my beloved with love, because I practiced so many times how to speak to myself with love. And I could really feel when I was trying to manipulate myself, when I was being too harsh on myself, when I was forgetting, you know, just glossing over, giving myself appreciation, I learned through that practice how to be a better partner. So it's one of the best practices that I have for self-love and integrating, and ending the war with yourself, and yeah, and becoming a better relational being for your loved ones and in your life. So enjoy, please share if you try this and how it feels for you.