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I get jealous easily. I won't even lie about it, and it's not because I don't trust you. It's because when I care about someone, I care a little too much. When I love, I don't do it halfway. I don't do kinda. I don't do sometimes. I give all of me, and that's why it scares me. So yeah, when I see you laughing with someone else or giving attention that used to be mine, my chest tightens. My mind starts running. My heart gets loud. It feels like I'm watching myself lose something. I'm not ready to lose. It's not about control. I don't want to own you. I don't want to cage you. I just get scared. Scared of being replaced. Scared of not being enough. Scared that maybe someone else will make you feel something I can't. And that thought it eats at me more than I'll ever admit. I know jealousy isn't cute. I know it makes me look insecure. I try to hide it. I try to swallow it, but sometimes it leaks through because I feel things deeper than most people realize. I overthink. I worry. I imagine scenarios that never happened. And I hate that about myself, but it's how I'm wired. When I care, I care with my whole chest. And honestly, if I get jealous, it's only because you mean something to me, because your presence affects me, because the thought of losing you, that hits harder than anything else in my life. I don't want to be the jealous type. I don't want to be the person who gets scared every time someone else makes you smile. I'm working on it. I really am. But I hope you understand that my jealousy doesn't come from anger. It comes from love, because when someone matters to you this much, it's impossible not to feel scared of losing them.